I feel terrible. My throat and sinuses are really acting up now. Brilliant. I hope this gets better til tomorrow evening, because I won't have the energy to work, be sick and pack my shit this weekend.
Blä.
I feel like shit. But I'm going to meet up with E. tomorrow, for some coffe and stuff. And talking. I haven't told her everything about what's happened because... Well, history. Our fucked up history.
But I wonder if I should. It feels like the things I haven't said are a big part of why I'm messed up right now and that if I don't tell her she won't understand. And I would be dishonest.
But I don't know how to tell her. It's that fear of showing your vulnerability. Plus, the situation is... Well, it is humiliating. And every time I mention it to someone I feel humiliated. I feel a fool.
No, it's not the situation that is humiliating (anymore). It is peoples reactions to it. Or maybe what I think peoples reactions to it are going to be. I don't know.
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