Pause?

I'm not angry now. I'm at a bit of peace. For now. It feels nice. I don't know why, really. But I'll try and not look a gift horse in the mouth.

I guess it is a difference in personal nature. I'm trying to accept that. I'm trying to just let go and accept. But it is a struggle and some days I lose. But others I win. Right now I don't know what I'm winning, but it has to be better than the days I'm losing. I guess I am winning small bits of peace. Maybe even larger bits?

I'm just so worried. And sad. But it is as it is. Life's a struggle and struggles ain't meant to be easy.