Couldn't sleep. I guess the combination of a day spent drinking coffee and an evening spent drinking beer (bad beer and not enough beer) took out it's toll. Plus the rest of all the shit that's been happening in my minf. So I just came home from a 2 hour walk. Walked through deserted streets in the south side of Stockholm. It didn't even feel like it was on this planet. Totally strange. Walked through parts of the town that I have never been on before. And yet I managed to stumble on to places that reminded me of things. How does that work? Bizarro World 2.0, you know?
I'm just... I miss and I don't. I see what once was in everything. Either by it being familiar or by it being unfamiliar and me not having anyone to share it with.
Schoolin 4 hours. Yippie. Right now I couldn't bare thinking and planning beyond the next five minutes. "Right now..." What am I talking about? It's been like that for months. Everything goes back and forth so much that I'm wishing for a fucking lobotomy. I have no rudder and I have no sails. I can't navigate because tha stars are blocked out. I don't know where I am and i don't know where the rest of the world is. I hardly even know if there is a world. Drifting on the seas of fate or something.
Blah! Going to try and get that sleep now.
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