Today Was A Good Day

The day has been alright. And for the first time in quite some time, I mean it. I feel OK. Sure, I'm still sad and down, but it's managable. The coffee was good, I got some studyin done, the company and the ice cream was nice, I just ate a pretty OK sandwich, there's not that much to do at work, I got season 2 of of Black Books" waiting for me at home and I had a really good shave this morning (my face still feels like a babys butt)... The little things, you know?

Now, the day isn't over yet, but it is a pretty OK day for once. And in some silly way that worries me a bit. But fuck it. I got a lifetime to be completely miserable in. Today I am going to be alright. Maybe not much more than that, but that is enough at the moment.

Oh, and I got three free days coming up (tuesday, wednesday & saturday)! I'm going to try and spend most of them studying, but if any of you feel like you want company or something of the sort, give me a call. I could probably use the break.


Just waking up in the morning gotta thank God
I don't know but today seems kinda odd
No barking from the dogs, no smog
And momma cooked a breakfast with no hog
I got my grub on, but didn't pig out
Finally got a call from a girl wanna dig out
Hooked it up on later as I hit the do'
Thinking will I live, another twenty-fo'
I gotta go cause I got me a drop top
And if I hit the switch, I can make the ass drop
Had to stop at a red light
Looking in my mirror not a jacker in sight
And everything is alright
I got a beep from Kim and she can fuck all night
Called up the homies and I'm askin y'all
Which court, are y'all playin basketball?
Get me on the court and I'm trouble
Last week fucked around and got a triple double
Freaking niggers everyway like M.J.
I can't believe, today was a good day

Drove to the pad and hit the showers
Didn't even get no static from the cowards
Cause just yesterday them fools tried to blast me
Saw the police and they rolled right past me
No flexin, didn't even look in a niggaz direction
as I ran the intersection
Went to $hort Dog's house, they was watchin Yo! MTV Raps
What's the haps on the craps
Shake em up, shake em up, shake em up, shake em
Roll em in a circle of niggaz and watch me break em
With the seven, seven-eleven, seven-eleven
Seven even back do' lil Joe I picked up the cash flow
Then we played bones, and I'm yellin domino.
Plus nobody I know got killed in South Central L.A.
Today was a good day

Left my niggaz house paid
Picked up a girl been tryin to fuck since the twelve grade
It's ironic, I had the brew she had the chronic
The Lakers beat the Supersonics I felt on the big fat fanny
Pulled out the jammy, and killed the punanny
And my dick runs deep so deep so deep
put her ass to sleep
Woke her up around one
she didn't hesitate, to call Ice Cube the top gun
Drove her to the pad and I'm coasting
Took another sip of the potion hit the three-wheel motion
I was glad everything had worked out
Dropped her ass off, then I chirped out
Today was like one of those fly dreams
Didn't even see a berry flashing those high beams
No helicopter looking for a murder
Two in the morning got the fat burger
Even saw the lights of the Goodyear Blimp
And it read Ice Cube's a pimp
Drunk as hell but no throwing up
Half way home and my pager still blowing up
Today I didn't even have to use my A.K.
I got to say it was a good day.

On a darker note, my thoughts and fantasies of violence resurged last night. Very much to my own surprise. I don't like that, because it means another frame of mind is near. The kind where the only way I can prove myself is by violence, and since I won't use violence... Well, I'll feel small and less of a man. But I'll try and keep it at bay, because now I know that it is there. Now I can keep it at bay (although I'm not really sure how. But I'll figure it out.).

I just got to figure out how you separate what you are from who you are.